Hard Truths: Embracing My Saturn Return

Saturn is Here

My Saturn return goes exact in a couple days, and the feeling is eerie—grounding, humbling, and strangely fated. It’s surreal to be here, living through it, fully aware I’m embodying the shift I once only read about.

I first felt Saturn stirring in 2023. The signs were subtle at first: tension in relationships I once held close, unexpected shifts in my career, and a quiet unraveling of the identity I thought was unchanging but as things cracked open, so did new opportunities—milestones I had long worked for finally arrived.

Identity, Loss & Becoming

I started to ask questions I couldn’t ignore: Who am I, amongst all the changes? Who am I becoming?

I pulled back and turned inward. I reflected on the kind of person I wanted to grow into—what I stood for, how I wished to be remembered, and what legacy I wanted to leave behind. I questioned the way I showed up in friendships. Was I being honest, supportive, present? And just as importantly: Why was I holding on to relationships that no longer aligned with my values?

I started to really look at myself—at the ways I was trying to fit in, chasing validation through how I looked or acted. I began asking: Why am I changing myself to be accepted? Who am I trying to impress? What if I’m already enough, just as I am?

The deeper I went, the more I peeled back.

Realignment & Purpose

Saturn invited me to zoom out. For the first time, I started thinking in years, not days.

What kind of life do I want five years from now? What decisions today will get me there? What kind of work lights me up—not just for the paycheck, but for the passion? What do I actually enjoy? What am I here to contribute?

These weren’t passing thoughts—they were gut-level awakenings. I started to see how my choices either supported or delayed the life I was meant to live.

I let go of temporary highs and leaned into long-term alignment.

Embracing the Return

Saturn knocks. And if you don’t open the door, it’ll knock it down.

Saturn is not cruel—it’s just uncompromising. It forces you to deal with what you’ve buried. To take responsibility. To step up. And when you do, it rewards you with wisdom and clarity.

Right now, I feel the weight of the last seven years pressing into this moment. Old structures are dissolving beneath my feet, while new threads are quietly stitching themselves into place.

I look at the woman in the mirror with tenderness. She’s standing in the place she once dreamed of. And though it doesn’t look exactly the way she imagined—it feels just as it should.

So I welcome my Saturn return—with open arms and a cup of tea. I am humbled as I move forward with clarity, gratitude, and pride in the woman I’ve become. May Saturn, this old teacher remember my younger, altruistic self—and remind me of the quiet lessons I’ve carried with me. May it guide me with grace, demand my best, and meet me with mercy.

Xx - Jeané Tui